I don’t think there’s any right answer to that.
Excited. Happy. Guilty. Worried. Scared. Curious. Inquisitive.
All of the above and more.
I had a rejection earlier this week for a job I interviewed for and hoped to go to when I returned. It’s fair to say it hit me hard and I’ve spent this week worrying and over-analysing it to death. Why didn’t they want me? What did I do wrong? Did I really misread how well the interview went?
I still feel like that but it’s alongside the excitement and adrenaline rush I get from all my travels. Not just a new country other a new city but every morning when I leave wherever I’m staying I get a rush of excitement and a bounce in my step that makes me so excited for the day ahead and where it might lead me. Is that weird? Am I the only one who is like that?
I don’t know.
What I do know is that I can’t be completely sad about not getting a job because I’m too happy doing what I’m doing now – exploring Japan and preparing to fly to Hong Kong at the end of this week. But at the same time I’m sad I don’t have a job I love to look forward to.
Sometimes I wish someone would tell me what the right thing is to do. But for now I’m just going to enjoy myself.